October 1st - The Truth

September 2011 was an amazing month of fun, joy, love, and celebrations.  It was a month of indulgences - and it was magnificent! 

October 2011 is time to get back to basics, get back to getting it done - day by day. 

First things first - assess where you are.  You can't "fly the plane" until you figure out your position. 

Where I am:

• A number on the scale this morning that I didn't much care for...
• Snug skinny jeans
• Discomfort

Onward:

• Focus on what can be done and my strengths
• Vision of what is desired (i.e. looser fitting skinny jeans)
• Comfort

Note - no wallowing, self doubt, or "beating up" allowed.  It is what it is - and the aformentioned things will never change that fact.  The best and only practical thing to do is move forward. 

Someone recently told me to never look back, lest like the myth of Eurydice, she returned to the Underworld the moment Orpheus looked back.  Look forward, he said, and avoid any unpleasant issues with what has passed.  You can't do a thing about it anyway, so look ahead. 

Checklist complete - All systems are go.  I am flying the plane from here, full speed ahead, with a clear vision of the destination.   

All is possible when all is desired.

Carpe Diem - and so it is...

Enough - Onward

A long while has passed since any words were written here. Why?

• Reasons? Many.
• Excuses? Perhaps a few.
• Results of the reasons and excuses? Not good.

Enough...

I'm most decidedly not where I want to be as I begin my "second half". It is very convenient to place blame on the birthday odyssey for some excess weight, but I know better. I know better than to blame in general. It does not, nor will it repair the damages and propel me forward (not backward) to where I want to be.

Enough...

No more resistance. No more attempting to change things that I cannot change. It is time to accept what is - as it is today (painful though that is).

• For this moment - it is what it is, no matter how I want it to be something else
• For this moment - indulgence, stress and frustration is sitting in my midsection (perhaps a bit in the thighs as well)
• For this moment - I am not able to complete the half marathon I wanted to do in October
• For this moment - the other unpleasant things are real and icky

And to all of that, and the items too numerous to list - for this moment - it is what it is.

The good news?  From this moment on - it can be different. It can change, it can be better, and I can react by making better choices.

Much has been accomplished thus far, and for all of those things I am profoundly grateful. Now - my sights are set on moving forward, and not ever looking back again.

One of my favorite football teams always performs very well in the first half, and fails to "close the deal" in the second half. In my second half - I intend to "close the deal" - over and over and over again.

Enough...

No looking back...

Onward...